It hurts more than you know.words are so had to describe my feelings at this moment, i have always been better with images, yet writting down how much i miss you, seems to give me more tranquility, writting to let go, to give this all a place. it will never heal, it will never go away, but just learning to give it time and space.
I can tell you how much i care, how much i'd give to have you back in my life, but you know all this and it won't change anything , that's what im learning within time.
writting to tell you how much i have learnt to show you that through fragility i become a stronger person, more able to understand, more able to listen and care, hurt through loss, i've become yet a wiser person. i miss the wormth of knowing you're just a phone call away, miss being kicked out of your room, i miss having to place your food into a microwave incase you come back hungry.i miss hearing you come in at night.i miss how you used to strangle my tummy when i told secrets to mom.
I miss you buti wam and u'll always be my brother and i love you
